May 2012
5 posts
i wish that i could let go
7 tags
there are some days
when the only thing you can do
is lay in bed
horizonatally
with the curtains drawn
and your mind
taking you places
that are foreign and undesired and weird
and these weird journeys are unwanted but you must give in to them
because the alternative is too much effort
7 tags
The Guest House - Rumi
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark...
I feel nauseous with guilt.
5 tags
“The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the...”
– Nietzsche
April 2012
10 posts
5 tags
“Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. You spend your whole life stuck in...”
– John Green
8 tags
“When all by myself, I can think of all kinds of clever remarks, quick comebacks...”
– Fernando Pessoa
3 tags
“He had eyes like drenched violets, so large that the water seemed to have...”
– Virginia Woolf (via funeraire)
5 tags
bittersweet: first poems in hindi/bengali
{Hindi}
yeh mithi mithi pyar.
yeh karava karava pyar.
yeh sundari ananda.
yeh nishchit gham.
यह मीठी मीठी प्यार.
यह कड़वा कड़वा प्यार.
यह सुंदरी आनंद.
यह निश्चित ग़म.
{Bengali}
ei mishti mishti prem.
ei kora kora prem.
ei shundori ananda.
ei anibarya dukha.
এই মিষ্টি মিষ্টি প্রেম.
এই কড়া কড়া প্রেম.
এই সুন্দরী আনন্দ.
এই অনিবার্য দু: খ.
{English}
This sweet, sweet...
ibelieveinloveandinyou:
Where were you when all this began? Where were you when I began to crumble into pieces? Where were you when I was in pain? Where were you when I just wanted to be held tight and told things were going to be alright?
Where were you when I needed you the most?
4 tags
6 tags
when will i stop - part 2
i have been making bad choices lately. i am up when i shouldn’t be. i sleep through class. i never write. i never memorize. i give myself chance after chance even though i don’t deserve it. i tell people too much even though they don’t deserve it and i shouldn’t risk it.
i am messing up yet again. when will i stop.
8 tags
when will i stop - part 1
sometimes i am so sad
and i think to myself
when will i stop
i do this to myself: i let others influence myself
when will i live a life that i made myself
inhibited and free
6 tags
scrub me raw clean me free from you i don’t need you you cling to me you stick to me like smoke to hair like sand to skin and I need to escape
March 2012
7 posts
“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of...”
– Sylvia Plath (via transformfeminism)
“But it is almost certain that you, too, have been in love. If so, you will no...”
– George Eliot (Adam Bede)
you are so beautiful
and you sparkle from afar
and you are almost at the peak of your life
and I am at the edge of the circle
“Songs are as sad as the listener.”
– jonathan safran foer
February 2012
19 posts
10 tags
i am a failure...again
failed again
fml
have to get 100s in everything else
12 tags
“Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden,...”
– Joss Whedon
“so sad right now. tears streaming this night. why do people forget me?”
– this is just the usual. why am I always alone on weekend nights?
12 tags
are you looking for me?
her dreams told her
that she would find him
and so she looked
and hoped
but most of all
she wondered
if he was looking for her
“run to me, at any hour, when you are down and broken. and i promise i will lift...”
i know i should not dream
of things that don’t matter
i should focus on the tangible
my goals and how to achieve them
but it so tempting to always
muse about love
even though i know that
love is a waste of time
6 tags
in the place
in this place where i was standing
there were two paths
which was the right one
which was the better one
which was the one
that lead me to you
i was confused
and alone
i was alone
and i prayed
I prayed
God will you give me a way
will you show me the way
i though i was waiting
on the world
to show me the way
i was really waiting
on myself
i just had to see my...
12 tags
“Everybody dies
but not everybody lives”
– Drake’s verse Nicki Minaj ft Drake: Moment 4 Life
14 tags
only so much
there is only so much you can do
only so much you can dream
before it all becomes too much
and your hope shatters
and the sadness is unrestrained
and the dam breaks, the downpour starts
oh i only want so little
indeed, the thing that I most dream of
is to be loved
i only want that
6 tags
craving some salty food
studying art history
and being distracted
have made some bad decisions lately
10 tags
“The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head”
– on my own
les miserables
8 tags
“I love him
But only on my own”
– on my own
les miserables
9 tags
on my own - les miserables
And now I’m all alone again nowhere to turn, no one to go to without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to And now the night is near Now I can make believe he’s here Sometimes I walk alone at night When everybody else is sleeping I think of him and then I’m happy With the company I’m keeping The city goes to bed And I can live inside my head On my own...
Meena's Happy Birthday Tribute to Eashwar →
no one cares
no one remembers me
they forget plans
they forget conversations
their eyes slide past me
and they don’t see me
and they look over my head
and they don’t care
they don’t care
if I am there
if I am anything at all
if I exist
9 tags
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...”
– Marianne Williamson
3 tags
that awkward moment when you actually go on facebook chat for once and no one else is on b/c they all have things to do on a saturday night…
(later i did SOME stuff)
January 2012
53 posts
She was hungry
and love was the only thing that could fill her
his love was the only thing that could sate her
1 tag
“they were empty”
7 tags
his words disappeared
like the smoke of his cigarettes
her words fell in your hands
and dripped through the cracks
